YOU must not only be ready to be smitten by God, my child; you must also be that He should smite you precisely He sees good. I look at you with your strong vigorous heart loving and willing earnestly - I am satisfied that it is so - for is little purpose in a stagnant lifeless heart. But you ought frequently to make a special act of love and submission to God's will before all else, not merely in things tolerable but in whatever seems to you most intolerable.
~ St Francis de Sales to Madame Chantal
I hope these encourage you as much as they have encouraged me.